Ready to Eradicate the Inner War within you?

By Joann Malanga, Soul Integration Coach.

It has become so easy for humanity to blame everything else outside of us, instead of going to sit with what’s coming up inside of us. Just take a look around us. We are quick to judge and look at what is going on in the world just around the corner. It’s easy to sit in the power of blame because we don’t have to take responsibility for our darkness inside. Our chaos.

The question we need to ask ourselves is, “Am I petrified to be loved fully within and stop the inner war?”

Until we face the Inner war that is inside of us, is when the outer war ends. For decades we have been blaming outside society that it’s not right, many systems are not working, the schools are full of politicians, food costs are high, and our partner doesn’t believe what I believe anymore, I can’t attract my soul mate and people are going off the deep end. We can sit here all day talking about what’s right and what’s not and how It’s everything outside of us. The truth of the matter is, while these are subjects of truth as we see it, it is also this inner war in each one of us that we have had going on for some time generation after generation.

How is that landing with you? Is this resonating…if so, please stay with me.

I know for me, year after year there was an inner war, a conflict of my inner child age 7 traumatized, and my 17-year-old who was angry and did not set boundaries. The light version and the dark version of me. Despite all the spiritual work I was doing, there was still something at battle within me my whole life. I just could not figure it out.

There was most definitely an inner war brewing. I just didn’t see it. It’s like one version of me would be working with me in whatever was going on, and then the other version was not cooperative and would destroy whatever I was trying to create.  Does that sound familiar? This ran my life for a long time until I noticed it and started to do what they call shadow work. This is in my opinion, another part of mental health which they don’t tell you about. It is about soul wellness and not just the mind.

How to identify if you have an inner battle going on?

1.     Do you have this unconscious war going on inside of you that just doesn’t stop?

2.     It’s like the mental health/spiritual work is always hard, and your life is always up for review and then there we go again where the shadow creeps up just when life is getting juicy and amazing.

3.     Do you go to therapy every week only to find yourself deeper down the rabbit hole still at war with yourself and not pulling the root of your problems out?

4.     Do you have this battle of blame and judgment within?

5.     Do you feel like no matter what spiritual practice you have; nothing is working with your frequency now?

6.     Do you have resistance and procrastination for what’s for you?

7.     Do feel like life is hard, and a struggle and just want to be in your feminine receiving mode but feel like you are giving up?

8.     Do you find you have this inner hatred you can’t quite explain and play a similar story?

9.     Do you feel Angry that nothing is going your way, no matter how much spiritual or mental health work you have done?  Angry and frustration are a “theme”

10.   I have a constant back and forth within me... mentally and emotionally.

11.   Do I spiritually bypass when emotion comes up pretending that everything is going well and I am good?

12.  Do you shut down in relationships both at home and outside of home and don’t share authentically what's going on with you or share what you need?

How do you know if shadow work or getting a spiritual coach is for you?

·        Imbalance and working all the time. Trading time for money.

·        Feel emotionally exhausted daily.

·        Have done spiritual work and still can’t get to the root of issues/challenges …there is this sense of inner war between 2 people inside of you.

·        Physical symptoms and mental, and emotional challenges.

·        Making excuses with yourself when stuff needs to get done. There is procrastination.

·        Running away from connections, and sometimes running away from your own emotions even with the spiritual work you have done. Saying to yourself, “The world is crazy”.

·        Relationship challenges, and feeling you can never get it right

·        You know deep down inside of you that there is a better life waiting for you.

·        Deep depression.

·        Hide from people saying you are an introvert.

·        Feeling hopeless and apathetic.

·        Empathic, sensitive, and very emotional. You absorb other people's energy at times and then have trouble discerning what’s yours and not. It’s almost like a webbing in another's energy field.

·        Feeling like a victim and powerless.

·        You feel tired of hearing “boss it up”, grind, go work harder or work more to create more wealth. You feel like you are grinding at it all the time in every area of life.

·        Tired of telling the same story to your therapist or you are the therapist and exhausted mentally, spiritually, and emotionally.

·        You are done with settling for “bread crumbs in life” and ready to face the fear of success in every direction of your life.

·        You are tired of paying therapists, coaches, and yoga big money and still have this “inner war” going on.

·        The mind is loud and getting louder.

You are ready to build a bridge to your new life and step fully into a new version of yourself with a balanced inner divine masculine and feminine energy.

Let me know and we can take a little trip there and back.

Check out my Eradicating the Inner War workshop on Eventbrite!

Hustle and Grace in the Same space,

Joann Malanga

Souyl Integration Coach